Sentrup On Ma Burstdee

 17 tahun, SMA, cewek tulen. Weww, kayaknya emang waktu yang tepat banget buat bersenang-senang dan menikmati masa muda ya?

Bayangkan, ulang tahunku kali ini benar-benar unexpected. Penuh dengan lilin di setiap anak tangga, ada banyak foto-foto jaman dulu sama anak-anak Sentrup, ada backsound lagunya Breaking Dawn part 2 (A Thousand Years) dari lantai 2, dan niupin lilin sama sahabat terdeket yang saat itu juga ulang tahun. Setelah nyampe di lantai 2, semuanya gelap, tapi masih banyak lilin dan lagu juga masih terdengar dan tiba-tibaaaaaaaa.... Taraaaaaaaaaaaa... Para malaikat tak bersayapku muncul dari balik koridor sambil bawa kue tart dan nyanyi lagu happy birthday. Yuhuuuuuu, menyenangkan sekali. Terharu to-the-max :')

Pikiran tentang sweet seventeen ketika aku kecil sama hari ini ternyata beda banget. Dulu, aku selalu bermimpi untuk membuat pesta semeriah mungkin dengan dresscode perlente, tart yang menggunung, dipinggir kolam renang atau di kafe terkenal. Terlihat bahagia ya? Tapi ternyata bahagia di saat ulang tahun bukan itu

"Ternyata bahagia disaat ulang tahun itu bukan dengan membuat pesta ultah seperti kebanyakan orang. Tapi bahagia saat ulang tahun itu adalah ketika kebanyakan orang membuatkanmu pesta ulang tahun dan memberikan kado terindah di dunia, yaitu doa setulus hati"

Untuk itu makasih banyak buat SENTRUP yang udah jadi orang-orang pertama yang inget aku ulang tahun dan sudah merayakannya dua hari sebelum peringatan hari ulang tahunku itu dengan cara yang swuuupeeerrr romantis :)

Hahahaa, thanks for everybadeee. Buat Nia, Vinny, Papah, Wening yang udah inget sama ultahku dan Ufull. Makasih buat perjuangannya mesen kue tart yang katanya susah mampus. Makasih buat Wening karena dalam watu seminggu dituntut udah harus jadiin kaosnya. Makasih buat Mas Ekki atas kameranya. Buat Bang Bagas Beruk karena udah mau jadi fotografer kita pada malem itu. Makasih semuanya :)

I'll Be This Person (ESL Assignment)

Whooaaa!! Don't be shocked cause this post! Hahaha, I just wanna share what things that I want the most. Some of it could be happen but some is not. Actually I have more than a thousand wishes, but for now I just share 17 because I'm 17 now. Just check whether you have same stupid wishes like me or not :D

1. Be more smart, at least more than Albert Einstein which is the most smart people in this earth. Hahaha 

2. Travel around the world

3. Be a billionaire

4. Go to UGM and maybe overseas

5. Become VIP member on One Direction concert

6. Build my own home in a seashore with sunset view

7. Hajj with my parents 

8. Work in NASA, Natgeo or United Nations

9. I wanna married in 26th in Paris and have a garden party with white and green decoration

10. My husband is an astronaut and he always sing me "Leaving On The Jet Plane" before he goes 

11. Honey moon in the moon 

12. I wanna have three kids

13. Eat yummy stuff everyday 

14. Dressing up and feeling pretty everyday

15. Collecting shoes 

16. See drizzle, drink a cup of hot chocolate from a big glass window in a warm room in the soft sofa, listen to the songs in my playlist

17. Happy ever after :)

Lelucon Teromantis

Dear, Novitasari Evi

Hawa tercipta di dunia
Untuk menemani sang Adam
Begitu juga dirimu
Tercipta tuk temani aku

17 tahun yang lalu terlahirlah sebuah kuncup bunga mawar, warnanya merah, baunya harum, seketika itu halamanku menjadi lebih berwarna. Hari demi hari bunga itu tumbuh dan berubah mekar secara perlahan. Namun tak ada satupun kumbang yang mau mendekatinya, hingga suatu hari di Bulan November ceria kumbang itupun datang, dengan terluka karena tertusuk duri mawar lainnya, dia coba untuk terbang namun akhirnya jatuh di atas mawar merah yang beranjak dewasa itu. Tak kenal, asing, mencurigakan, hal pertama yang ada di fikir mawar itu pada si lebah. Namun dengan ikhlas mawar itu memberikan sedikit madunya yang manis. Setelah beberapa saat si lebah siuman, namun tanpa mengenal budi dia pergi begitu saja. Sampai sekarang cerita itu belum berakhir... Tak ada yang tahu...



Bayangkan orang yang paling kamu cintai di dunia ini ngasih kamu itu tepat di hari ulang tahunmu! Apa yang kamu rasain?
a. Melting
b. Melting 
c. Melting
d. Bingung 

Aku memilih jawaban yang D

Aku bahagia di atas kebingunganku, dan itu adalah hal terbodoh yang pernah aku lakukan. Duniaku benar-benar berubah hanya dalam beberapa detik oleh tulisan tangan konyol yang bagi orang lain itu sampah. Pernah lihat Cintapuccino atau Cinta Pertama (Sunny)? Mungkin seperti itu aku sekarang. Kalo aku Amy, dia itu Nimo-ku. Cinta mati sama seserong bertahun-tahun dan menjadi fans fanatiknya sampai aku rela meninggalkan calon suamiku yang 2 minggu lagi akan menikahiku. Kalo aku Alya, dia itu akan jadi Sunny-ku. Sunny yang selalu ada di depan mataku, yang tak pernah sekalipun aku berani membayangkan untuk menyapanya. Sunny yang selalu aku rindukan di hari pertunanganku dengan cintaku yang lain. Dan tiba-tiba diujung hidupku dia bilang sesuatu yang selama ini aku tunggu, DIA MENCINTAIKU. Tapi apakah aku harus menunggumu hingga aku bertunangan dan akan menikah dengan orang lain? Akankah aku menunggumu ketika aku mendapatkan serangan kanker otak stadium 4 dan aku mengigaukan namamu? Enggak kan?! Aku manusia, dan ini hidup, bukan film.


Tapi mungkin suatu saat ada harapan untukku. Ketika matahari bersinar lebih terang dari hari ini dan terbit dari barat. Ketika ada buah apel yang berbuah di pohon mangga. Ketika bumi mengotak. Ketika semua aspal jalanan memutih. Ketika harapan semua orang meluruh. Ketika semua lagu terlupakan, dan mungkin ketika aku tidak punya waktu lagi untuk bercerita tentang atau dengannya. Aku bermimpi, dia merubah fikirannya dan membuka hatinya untukku.

Tapi apapun itu, terimakasih untuk ini :)

If I am . . . The Most Richest Human In This Earth (ESL Assignment)

A week ago I got an assignment which is I should make 100 wish in my life. First of all, I wrote everything that its might be happened in my life, but then I realized if that's not wishes, but that was hopes. I analyzed what kind of life that I wanna really do. I found some strange point that I've never imagine that I'll write it on my wish. And one of them is, if I am a millionaire.

Since I was born, I live in the middle modest family. I've never have a lot money in my own sake and also my parents. We aren't rich but we lived well off although we need to work hard everyday. 

And after all of that time, I always imagine if in a second my life changed after I open my eyes from my sleep. In a perfect morning, birds singing in the sky and sun shine more brighter than yesterday I wake up in royal bed with very soft and thick blanket. I see my bedroom with all of bourgeois facilities. And maybe I have fifteen house keeper. My house is bigger than Indonesian republic palace. Its seems like White House but located in tropical country. I have wide yard around my house and Olympic size of swimming pool under my veranda.

I don't work, but my money is work for me. I'm an investor in almost all multinational company. I have big safe-deposit box in my basement and I'm free to use it. I have more than twenty credit cards and I've never check my savings because it always continuously increase. So, I'll never feel loss if I give some million dollars to my friends. I'll never be poor.

And next, what will I do in that condition
If the story above is become true and I am a real millionaire. I will shopping, travelling around the world,Honestly, I will make a foundation which is concerned to national education and humanity. Yeah, lets say just like Sampoerna Foundation which build the character of leadership in their curriculum  I wanna re-build my country which is too wrecked to repaired. The leader in this country has good background of education but they have nothing to lead others. They just want to lead, but not be leaded. 

And why should humanity?
Human rights violations from the dominant to the minority is still prevalent. Some of us just care but we do nothing. The big reason of why we do nothing is money, but I have it. So, I'll try to push down the number of human rights violations and make this country has a high dignity in the world.

Believe it or not, share and give others is a simple meaning of happiness. They need our help, and we need their warmth. And the meaning of life will start when that thing happen.

But it was just; If I am a millionaire
And the fact, I'm more than a millionaire 
I'm very grateful to be me :)
Because Bill Gates ever said :


"I regret being the richest man in the world because that position attracts undeserved publicity"
- Bill Gates

Nama-nama yang Bakalan Muncul di "The 2013 People's Choice Awards"

Nominasi-nominasi yang nanti bakalan ada di "The 2013 People's Awards" ternyata secara resmi udah keluar. Akan ada banyak banget artis-artis rajanya musik dunia yang bakalan meramaikan acara ini. Dan sepertinya artis beken yang sekarang emang lagi di posisi puncaknya seperti Justin Bieber sama One Direction masih sangat mendominasi. Buktinya Justin dinominasikan dalam 5 kategori dan One Direction di posisi kedua dengan dinominasikan ke 4 kategori sekaligus. Sekedar info aja, acara ini bakalan di tayangin di CBS tanggal 9 Januari 2013 nanti secara langsung dari Teater Nokia, Los Angeles. Penasaran dengan siapa nama-nama yang masuk ke nominasi? Langsung di cek aja deh apa idola favorit kamu ada di list di bawah ini. Check it out!

FAVORITE MALE ARTIST
Blake Shelton
Chris Brown
Jason Mraz
Justin Bieber
Usher

FAVORITE FEMALE ARTIST
Adele
Carrie Underwood
Katy Perry
Pink
Taylor Swift

FAVORITE POP ARTIST
Adele
Demi Lovato
Justin Bieber
Katy Perry
Pink

FAVORITE HIP HOP ARTIST
Drake
Flo Rida
Jay-Z
Nicki Minaj
Pitbull

FAVORITE R&B ARTIST
Alicia Keys
Beyonce Knowles
Bruno Mars
Rihanna
Usher

FAVORITE BAND
Green Day
Linkin Park
Maroon 5
No Doubt
Train

FAVORITE COUNTRY ARTIST
Blake Shelton
Carrie Underwood
Jason Aldean
Taylor Swift
Tim McGraw

FAVORITE BREAKOUT ARTIST
Carly Rae Jepsen
Fun
Gotye
One Direction
The Wanted

FAVORITE SONG
Carly Rae Jepsen - "Call Me Maybe"
Maroon 5 - "One More Night"
Taylor Swift - "We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together"
Fun ft. Janelle Monae - "We Are Young"
One Direction - "What Makes You Beautiful"

FAVORITE ALBUM 
Justin Bieber - Believe 
Carrie Underwood - Blown Away
Maroon 5 - Overexposed
Fun - Some Nights
One Direction - Up All Night

FAVORITE MUSIC VIDEO
Justin Bieber - "Boyfriend"
Carly Rae Jepsen - "Call Me Maybe"
PSY - "Gangnam Style"
Katy Perry - "Part Of Me"
Maroon 5 ft. Wiz Khalifa - "Payphone"

FAVORITE MUSIC FAN FOLLOWING
Justin Bieber's Beliebers
One Direction's Directioners
Katy Perry's KatyCats
Demi Lovato's Lovatics
Selena Gomez's Selenators

Selalu dukung bias kamu dan semoga infonya bermanfaat :D

More Than This - One Direction (Lyrics)

[Liam]I’m broken, do you hear me?I’m blinded, ‘cause you are everything I see,I’m dancin’ alone, I’m praying,That your heart will just turn around,
And as I walk up to your door,My head turns to face the floor,‘Cause I can’t look you in the eyes and say,
[Harry]When he opens his arms and holds you close tonight,It just won’t feel right,‘Cause I can love you more than this, yeah,When he lays you down,I might just die inside,It just don’t feel right,‘Cause I can love you more than this,Can love you more than this
[Niall]If I’m louder, would you see me?Would you lay downIn my arms and rescue me?‘Cause we are the sameYou save me,When you leave it’s gone again,
[Louis]And when I see you on the street,In his arms, I get weak,My body fails, I’m on my knees,Prayin’,
[Everyone]When he opens his arms and holds you close tonight,It just won’t feel right,‘Cause I can love you more than this, yeah,[ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/more-than-this-lyrics-one-direction.html ]When he lays you down,I might just die inside,It just don’t feel right,‘Cause I can love you more than this, yeah,
[Zayn]I’ve never had the words to say,But now I’m askin’ you to stayFor a little while inside my arms,And as you close your eyes tonight,I pray that you will see the light,That’s shining from the stars above,
(And I say)
[Liam]When he opens his arms and holds you close tonight,It just won’t feel right,‘Cause I can love you more than this,
[Zayn]‘Cause I can love you more than this, yeah
[Everyone]When he lays you down,I might just die inside,It just don’t feel right,‘Cause I can love you more than this, yeah,
When he opens his arms and holds you close tonight,It just won’t feel right,‘Cause I can love you more than this, yeah
When he lays you down,I might just die inside,It just don’t feel right,‘Cause I can love you more than this,Can love you more than this

If I Were Keke (ESL assignment)

Ever hear the “Surat Kecil Untuk Tuhan” movie. That movie based on novel which is true story from a girl who has Rabdomiosarcoma (soft connective tissue cancer), Gita Sessa Wanda Cantika (Keke). In the last seconds of her life, she wrote a poem about her life and everybody inside it. From that poem, I wanna reflex something from her life and mine, and finally I imagine If I were her in that time.

God

If I could go back

I wont their tears falls down again

If I could go back

I wont the same thing that happened to me will happen to anyone else

God

May I write a letter to you?

God...

May I ask a little thing from you?

God...

Let me see with my own eyes

For looking sky and moon everyday

God...

Let me have my hair grow up again so I can become a real woman

God...

Could I smiled longer

So I can give my happiness for my dad and my friends

God...

Give me power to grow up

So I can give the meaning of life for anybody who know me

God...

This little letter

Is my last letter in my life

If I could go back

I learned something from that story and especially from that poem. Sometime, when the time comes, and we have no more second to life. The problem is we’ll never know when we’ll die, where we’ll spend our last time and with who we’ll face the last days in our life.

But in some cases, some people will know when the will die because of their doctor prediction  for their disease and this is ever happened in Keke’s life.

Lets go in this story . . .

I imagine when I have a perfect life in my version and I should face the extreme change because of a disease which is ruin my face and kill me slowly. I have a family although its already broken. I live with my dad and my two older brothers. They are so busy, but I know one thing; they love me so much especially my dad. My mom? Sometime I meet my mom if I miss her.

My disease comes when I just feel something wrong with my eyes. Its reddish. But I know something goes wrong when I found clot as big as tennis balls and slowly its getting bigger as coconuts. It would made ​​me ashamed. I will be inferior to meet with everyone, friends and especially the people I love.

I don’t know what does it feels when I should face the reality if I got cancer, very dangerous cancer. My doctor calls it Rabdomiosarcoma. Its attack tissues in my right chick. I know my dad gives me a smile, but a second after that smile I know it was fake. The most excruciating feeling is when we know the people we love sad because to think about us.

My dad was so worrying me. Sometime he blame himself because he thoughts if  this bad thing happened to me because of karma. I know he has problem with his business because of my medical payment. He tried to heal me with chemotherapy and it was so expensive. The effect of chemotherapy that lasted only a few months. After that my face back like before I have chemo and I felt its getting worse. My hair started falling out. Now, I have no single hair on my scalp. I don’t want to see the world, I just too ashamed. Especially to Andy.

Andy, my first boyfriend and I think he’s the last. I love him, and probably he loves me. But I hate it, he so patient accept my condition just the way I am.  He kept coming to the my house or to the hospital just to get me.

I asked him to leave me, but he never heard it. I do not know how it feels when he sees my face like this. Its seems more like witch than a girl. I want him to get love from others are better than me but once again, he wont.

My doctor told me if I only have three months away. Initially I felt very sad. But over the time I realized that maybe this is my way. I wont to burden my father who had to work hard every day just to see me get well. After that maybe I will not see my family fight again.

I'd be more appreciative my time. I appreciate everyone around me. I would feel so close to them. I want to do everything. I want to fulfill my childhood dreams before my time comes.

And finally I realized one thing, I just want to see my family together again. I want to see my father, my mother and my brother get along again.

I know now, when we have limit time to life we will forget something that we thought it was important before just like money or win a lottery. We will prefer to spend our last time in the middle of our lovely family, friends and our love. And the most important is a second that already we passed because we will never back in that time.