Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Simple Plan - Welcome to My Life
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So "WELCOME TO MY LIFE"
I began my story with strange beginning. I was born when my mom in 46 years old with normal parturition. She never expected before if she would has a child again. When she felt something wrong with her stomach, she thought that it was just ulcer or dysentery. Just imagine it, everybody thoughts I'm a disease. I can't blame them cause my mom was to old to has a child again and when I was born my older brother was already got job. So, who would wonder if I'm here. I think it was the best accident ever, if its never happened I don't know can I write this or not.
I grew up with good deep education from my mom and dad. They are more understand about life than the others parents in the world because they already mature. Actually I have bad childhood memory. I have no friends because my mom never let me out from my house. When I was child I thought that she hates me and wants me to never have any happiness. When all of my neighbor's daughters and sons played a new game, or just gather in front of their house, played rope jumping, badminton and bla bla bla I just looked them from cleft of my window. I hate my mom in that's time. In 4 years old when my friends played their games, I just stuck in my house with my mom and she teach me mathematics, how to write, make a words and then sentences from my own handwriting and also read some newspapers. I was bored. When I'm getting older, I realized that although my mom never done her Junior High, but I proud of his ability to teach me everything that she knows. My parents. They love to get angry with me, but they never give me fake smile. I know that they love me so much. I realized that fact when I'm going to take my scholarship at Sampoerna Academy. I should separated from them in a far apart.
Since the first time I have a friend in my kindergarten, I've never expected that friendship is so wonderful. For now, I have wonderful friends, in the wonderful place, at the wonderful age and wonderful time to be happy. We live in the same dormitory, in the same class and maybe in the same house. We meet everyday and can share everything. Everybody knows each others. We are the one who never realized that actually we are more than friendship, we are brotherhood. Javanese people always say "Dudu sanak dudu kadhang, yen ilang melu kelangan" (The mean : although not brother or sister, friend always feels same feeling that we feel). That's right! when we have true friends, they will share everything they have, and we do the same thing too.
Those are the important part of my story. Please don't ask me about my love story. Its to embarrassing to be told. I've never have a true love but I already have nine ex. I don't know. I did it just for having fun. I don't care if everybody look me with their bad sight. They just didn't know if is it hurt. You know the secret of my relationship with my exs? I should change myself becomes the other person and she was not me. I become particular person, have no uniqueness and very ordinary, It was hurt. They arrange me become a girlfriend who they need. Now, I believe someone will find me and loving me, just me. Not because who I am.
Actually, for now I'm in the edge of loving someone but he doesn't know it. When I care him more he get angry and say "what are you doing?". When I ask him about something, sometime he doesn't hear me and go away. In a few of expensive time, he becomes very great person that I need. He calm, have a huge of braveness, make some jokes, tells me about his story, walk together and sing a freak song or sometime romantic song. We have same passion, everybody knew it but him. I have almost 150 photos of him in my laptop. I try to get any information about him with stalking. I stalking his facebook, twitter, and blog as often as I can I wrote his name in my mission statement. I'm still loving him although I know how disgusting he is when he sleeps. I'm still loving him although I know he already has someone special in his life and it can't changed by me. I'm happy with this. Be a useful person for him is more meaningful than become his girl. I want he tells me about all of his day. I can't promise I can make his problem done with it, but I promise to hear him as much as I can. I want someday he knows about all this. I will never complain my love story with those in the movies, because they are written by scriptwriters and mine is written by God.
For me, life is a story and I'm the writer and also the actress. I'm free to make my own story or setting some parts that I need. I don't care about the happy ending, I just play my part and done it as perfect as I can. I'm free to be me and I'm free to choose every path that I want :)
Actually, for now I'm in the edge of loving someone but he doesn't know it. When I care him more he get angry and say "what are you doing?". When I ask him about something, sometime he doesn't hear me and go away. In a few of expensive time, he becomes very great person that I need. He calm, have a huge of braveness, make some jokes, tells me about his story, walk together and sing a freak song or sometime romantic song. We have same passion, everybody knew it but him. I have almost 150 photos of him in my laptop. I try to get any information about him with stalking. I stalking his facebook, twitter, and blog as often as I can I wrote his name in my mission statement. I'm still loving him although I know how disgusting he is when he sleeps. I'm still loving him although I know he already has someone special in his life and it can't changed by me. I'm happy with this. Be a useful person for him is more meaningful than become his girl. I want he tells me about all of his day. I can't promise I can make his problem done with it, but I promise to hear him as much as I can. I want someday he knows about all this. I will never complain my love story with those in the movies, because they are written by scriptwriters and mine is written by God.
For me, life is a story and I'm the writer and also the actress. I'm free to make my own story or setting some parts that I need. I don't care about the happy ending, I just play my part and done it as perfect as I can. I'm free to be me and I'm free to choose every path that I want :)
They are my brothers and sisters
They are my part of life
And someone in this photo is my love :)
